Ghost, Haunting
After the fortunate
break-up, my thoughts wandered over to that desolate place which I
thought I’ve already walled off in my mind: the Dom-JP issue. Yeah, it
was a place I thought I’ve buried forever and never to be visited
again. But then, again, I found myself looking at it, staring at the
pristine door. Slowly, I pushed on it and welcomed by the pungent smell
of odd familiarity.
I reexamined each artifact attesting to the
occurrence of the said events revolving around the unexpected
foreboding. Each sharp text and friendster message (Exhibit A), all the
pictures from JP’s and Dom’s friendster galleries (Exhibit B), JP’s
imprecise and incoherent explanations (Exhibit C), Dom’s feisty
accusations against me and JP (Exhibit D), and the precipitous silence
after all the teeth gnashing (Exhibit E). I will not anymore go into
the details of each. Suffice to say that I reexamined each from a new
perspective. Before, the only conclusion I came up was that JP is the
one telling the truth and Dom is lying, in bitterness for an unrequited
love. I was led to believe in that. My fault perhaps that I gave too
much credence to JP’s claim that he did not do anything intentionally.
The unfortunate events were just due to overexpectation in Dom’s part
and JP’s seeming ignorance of such overexpectation. But now I’m
thinking there is deliberate manipulation of the situation on the part
of JP.
Due to the recent events, I may have to revise my conclusion: Both of them may be telling the truth.
The
anger of Dom was expected of someone whose trust was betrayed. Of JP’s
ignorance of Dom’s expectations, that I cannot refute or affirm,
because, as I am aware now, it is difficult to know if JP is telling
the truth or not. That is simply because he has a history of telling a
series of lies, often times weaving it skillfully with the truth that
it seemed fused with it.
With all the right pieces falling in place, I have a clearer view of things.
But,
no, I’m not apologizing to Dom for all the heated words I have told
him. Rather, I am regretting the energy and time I spent shielding JP
from him when he so deserved to get Dom’s whipping.
To Dom, all I can say is: Now I understand your anger.
